one week later

One week later and all has changed. Life has taught me that everything as we know it can change within the blink of an eye. Last Sunday night I had THE BIGGEST SCARE of my entire life! It was completely out of the blue and messed with my emotions so much that I cried. I realized that I am not scared to die, not at all. But the fact that I am so far away from my family and that it would break my parents’ heart… that is what choked me up. Good to know that I have conquered one fear: I do not fear death anymore. Also, my body is telling me that I need to take better care of myself, need to pay more attention to certain things. Really thought I was about to meet my Maker. That did not happen, am relieved, but it did force me to rethink certain things concerning my future.

One week later & so much has changed.

Yes, when I had some health issues last year I changed my diet. No, I do not believe in diets, but I just mean I decided to think twice about what I put in my mouth (no pun intended). I felt better, started to look better, but I ran out of medicine. Did have some supplements, but it seems that they were not enough. Sunday really was THE SCARIEST night of my life.

Just seven days later & I am thinking grim thoughts …

The only thing going through my mind at that time (no lie), was: “If I die now, how long will it take for them to find me? I live alone.” That was one of the few times I did wish I had a roommate. Then I thought, “If I die, my parents will have to travel all the way to the other side of the world to take me home.” Yeah, I know it sounds dramatic, it was a pretty dramatic moment. But thankfully I am OK, I took the entire week to rest. Did go to classes, but then came back to rest. Never slept so much in my life!

I am also grateful for my Marcio … <3

I told him what happened and he immediately volunteered to accompany me to the hospital. He stuck by me the entire time, calls and messages regularly to check up on me… really melted my heart. Seven days ago I was thinking about PLAN A (concerning my future), a week later I have to consider PLAN B or C.

I just know that whichever road I decide to take, the people who love me will stand by me… no matter what. I love them all and am very blessed! <3