final semester

My final semester at this college started two weeks ago, and I am extremely overwhelmed. I still have six courses I need to pass, have to do them all this semester. Each student is allowed to retake up to four exams, I will be doing six. The teacher asked me if I will be coming back next semester, I told him that, although I had so much fun here, I’m not looking forward to returning for one more semester. I am DONE! On to the next step, which is continuing my education.

I still haven’t decided where I’ll go after my final semester ends.

There are many options, as I have mentioned before. I still have enough time to decide what will be best for me. Right now I’m talking to some people, sending out some resumes, contacting universities here in Xiamen. The choices are all very exciting, but we shall see what the future brings. I have learnt that we sometimes make plans, but life has a different path for us. So whatever path I need to take next, I am ready and happy with the outcome. Yes, it does stress me out from time to time, but there is little to nothing I can do about that at the moment.

final semester
Final semester – I need to be FOCUSED! No distractions, absolutely no negativity and bullshit.

Four months to go, then I’ll graduate. Wow! The day is finally here! I am proud of myself!

That is something I have not told myself often, that I am proud of myself. I am the first one in my entire family to travel this far, to live in a country with a completely different culture, a different language… it has been quite THE adventure. For someone who has ALWAYS been surrounded by family and Daddy to take care of me (which was often), it has been a great experience for me. I am sure I would not be the woman that I am now had I not come to China. It was the (second) best decision I made in my life.

Like I said earlier, I don’t give myself enough credit.

I am the first to heavily and mercilessly criticize myself. Believe me, no one can do it like moi. But I realize that I should also give myself more credit. Withou the help of my family and friends who show me on a daily basis they really care about me, I would not have made it this far. But, I also would not have made it this far if I didn’t have a plan for my future and the willpower to chase after it. Yes, I got sidetracked for a semester, and ended up failing many courses… something I did not tell my parents, I did not want them to worry about me. But times have been tough for me, and I made it through… thanks to my friends here and the Man upstairs.

Have gotten this far, I won’t fail now. I have got this.

Now I just hope that my teacher pays more attention to the courses I have to retake. Last semester, he scheduled three of my exams on the same day AT THE SAME TIME! I was so freaking ANGRY about it! I PAID to retake those exams and it was not cheap! “Just take the exams of your last year first, then retake the others at the beginning of the semester.”

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Final semester is here!!! – This is what I thought when he told me that he could not pay attention to everyone who has to retake exams, he schedules them how he sees fit

So, wish me luck! I will need all of the luck in the world!

Time to go now. Much love? šŸ™‚